Thursday, October 27, 2005
slack day wif darlz..
my comp keeps hanging... haiz... realli wanted to tok to him online at least but cannot.. my stupid hi card got no more value so can't tok to him at night... aniwae today me had a realli gd day... was wif him from 12.15 to 6.30 plus... we were juz toking at amk park... was realli slacking.. after 5 days i saw him... n it was realli nice.. it realli surprises me how wen i see him my whole day seems to brighten up... he is realli a sunshine la.. n then we were toking abt alot of things... abt us n discovery planet.. his study plan.. n wad we plan to do for the next yr... seriously its going to be only studying the whole of next yr... i realli want it to work.. i want him to do realli well n prove everybody wrong.. i'll be sooooo proud...
n today wen we were at the park we saw this whole 'grp' of ants n they were trying to move this realli big spider across n they did manage to.. it was realli amazing.. reminded me of all the things abt teamwork...
n i was telling him abt this dream mayb not dream but goal i have set for ourselves... more like he is suppose to be realli rich n he will drive a superb car.. n then all the ppl who are jealous n caused so much of harm to both of us shld see both of us soo sucessful... haiz... it will happen one day...
n there is sth which i realli cannot help him wif.. his great loss... i mean i know its painful... but i dun noe the extent... i know it hurts.. but i dunnoe how to console... i'm realli worried for him... hope he realli gets the courage to face it... all i know is i'll definetly be there wen he needs me... god plz be by his side...
Visual Angel [I`m in love.] 7:06 AM
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
not soo bad after all...
today was damn boring in school.... had to be stuck wif pw the whole day... it sucked.... but went temple straight after tad n then went back home.. felt damn guilty wen i came back... coz my mum was nice to me... i mean i dunnoe wad she felt inside but she realli was nice to me later... felt very guilty... n then we went to geylang to get some material for the curtains and cushions... ya tads abt it.. i miss him... i miss him alot.. but i can't meet him tomorrow also... n i realli dun want to go over... hopefully i see him soon... i guess its bcoz of that i have been feeling very grouchy lately... haiz... but at least he got others to replace me... haiz.. miss him lotz la.. today is J's 4th anniversary... damn nice la... 4 years.... damn power right... god bless u guys...
Visual Angel [I`m in love.] 6:29 AM
Monday, October 24, 2005
bitch
hi... nuting much today... juz that i'm pretty mad coz things are going terrible now... ever heard a mum call her daughter names a gal shld never be called.. well my mum is that sort.. she juz called me terrible names.. n it hurts but surprisingly i'm not in tears coz i'm soo use to it now... i mean cummon she thinks i'm jealous of her... coz she is going for sum dinner.. she was asking me abt this chain to wear.. n i truly feel that it is ugly.. coz its sooo gaudy (however u spell tad)... n she thinks i'm jealous n tads y i dun want her to wear it... how silly is that.. n becoz of that i bcum all the things she say... haiz.. wad to do.. life is miserable... n then tad fellow is mad at me for not going over to his place... first i cld not coz i had pw.. n moreover i realli cld not go coz i din have enuff money for bus fare... but despite all that i decided to take all the risk n went all the way to the bus stop.. n he told me his mum mayb cuming over.. n he sounded serious abt it.. so i got a bit disappointed n started walking back to school... n then later he told me he was joking.. n it realli made me mad... n so i started showing attitude back.. n he got mad... n until now he hasn't called me... i tried calling but no one is answering.. i wonder where this is going to lead... guess tads abt it...
Visual Angel [I`m in love.] 3:18 AM
Saturday, October 22, 2005
was out wif my darlz the whole day today... we first went to tekka.. went to choose bangles... n he was sooo patient... stood by me all the time... not bad he can tolerate me... i'm always soo picky wen i have to choose sth... n he was soo patient wif all the remarks i gave after i chose sth n dun end up buying it.. but in the end he chose a set of bangles for me n i decided to get that.. its nice... after that we were eating at komala villas.. he was new to it... guess he never ate in such cheap places.. but at least i managed to save sum money... n there sth happened... but i realli dun wish to write abt it coz it hurt alot.. like one slap on my face... aniwae after tad we took the train to orchard... n we bought tickets for flightplan at Lido... n then we were walking into shops... n he went to all the realli expensive shops... felt realli bad that i cld not afford to buy him anything.. but i'll try my bez to get sth for him from those expensive shops on his bdae.. hopefully.. god help me... after tad he showed me this realli beautiful set of jewellery he wanted to buy for me wen i had gone to sri lanka..... it was sooo beautiful... but i din check the price but i'm sure it muz be very expensive... n then there were times wen my possesiveness came out wen he told me he was planning to buy J sth.. n wanted to see if i liked it too.. it realli pissed me.. but aniway she is one of his gd frenz.. so i juz have to tolerate... aniwae i'm trying my bez to give him his own space... after that we went to watch the movie... it was gd... n then later we went to get me sum clothes coz i had to get sth.. n he was realli nice wen he waited outside the dressing room to see how i looked wen i tried sth on... it was realli nice... felt like at least there is sum1 who cares abt how i look..n i got a skirt n blouse.... n then later we decided to leave... i was hoping to be able to spend some time wif him at amk.. but he had to go.. so me had to go home n wait for parents to cum back coz i had no key... how unlucky was that... but it was a nice day la..
Visual Angel [I`m in love.] 10:46 PM
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
tekka
nuting much today except for lectures have started n i'm planning to realli study consistently.. n ya today was farwell assembly for the principal... u noe i came to realise when u retire... it seems like everything is over... everybody says gd bye to u.. n u end up staying at home doing nothing... esp after all the hectic work... damn boring ah... hope my princi has a great retirement.... n me went to tekka to get my diwali suit.. ended up wif sth very simple... for thevery first time sth simple... but my daddy thinks its too simple... but mummy thinks its pretty... n i am lost... everything else is soo ugly anyway... there is nuting which appeals to my eye immediately.. n when they do they are at least three hundred bugs... haiz... damn irritating.. guess tads abt it la... me gtg tok to my darlz now...
Visual Angel [I`m in love.] 7:36 AM
Monday, October 17, 2005
I'M G8
i received the best news today... i bet u cld guess it... I am promoted.... yay.....how cool is that... i was soo expecting to fail maths but i managed to get a E... i mean think abt it i got 10/100 for mye and now i got 46/100... am i smart or wad... hehe... dun mind me juz that i'm super happy... n my whole class is promoted... wow... cool right... now i swear i'm going to work hard consistently... i swear i will not slack... then after all the results my darlz n i met... we went to bishan to eat n walked ard the shops...window shopping... n then went to watch movie.... it was super cool... after soo long i can enjoy myself n smile wifout feeling guilty... hehe.... u noe once upon a time he hated going out wen we din have any money... but now we were walking ard all the shops commenting on everything we saw without even spending a single cent.. damn cool... n then went to watch "Skeleton Key"... it was super freaky.... haiz... but kind of long also... but nice la not bad... but i'm feeling guilty my monkey din study for his upcoming exams... now muz make sure he study for the next two days... i dun want him retaking any module... guess thats abt it... n there is this stupid bastard/bitch telling me to fuck off... realli this kind of ppl hu dun dare put their names shld get a life... if u have the guts.. face me straight... if not u had better fuck off... by the way u r not spoiling my day.... haha... i love myself...
Visual Angel [I`m in love.] 5:20 AM
Sunday, October 16, 2005
V apologised to me.... it made me truly smile after soo long... ya mayb i understood her wrongly... but i'm glad i din lose them totally... mayb according to her i'm in the wrong.... mayb i am.. but i realli dunnoe wad i have to do next... i wun give my guy up.. neither will i give my frenz up... but i've learnt the next time there is an outing as a grp... i'm never going to bring my darlz.... he has gone thru enuff humilation for me... he doesn't deserve it.... even if the rez of the guys cum he won't at least i'll make sure he doesn't... but like i said... i'm not angry... i cannot be angry wif them... they were the ones who restored my life wen it was going crazy.. at least for that i'll be grateful... but everything has a limit... so as long as i stick to my limits... everything will be safe... i'm not walking away juz as i stated in my previous blog.. if they eva need me i'm always there for them.. if i need sum1 i have thiv, abi n my darlz... more then enuff for me.... love u guys (includes RF).....
Visual Angel [I`m in love.] 3:45 AM
